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That's how I feel today. If possible, worse than yesterday. Maybe this is how it's gonna be, every day worse than the one before. I was fiinally getting my life back on track. Had a bank acct, credit was even starting to improve. Then, it all came crashing down. Because of the truck issue, I spent every last cent I had to my name. Well, apparently more than that, since my acct is now overdrawn 200 dollars. I don't get another SSDI check til the 3rd of March. It's for 242.00. If my account is still open then, the fees will have grown to an amount greater than that, so I'll get no money at all, and the bank acct will close. Of course, I have to eat until then. I broke my phone, so I ordered a new one from Boost. Phone came, I ported my cricket number so it would stay the same. I have to pay Boost for a month of service before it comes active. I have no money. The cricket phone was paid til the end of the month. My cable bill was due three days ago, so the house phone and internet will shut off soon. Then, I'll have no means of communication, no vehicle, no hope, no nothing. I know this is very negative, but it just hits me sometimes. I just don't know what to do. There's not much to do. No vehicle, no job, even if I could work. I better go, I'm sure not cheering myself up any. Before I go, though, I want to thank you, Debbie, for helping me. I know people love me, etc etc, but I just don't know how I'm gonna turn this shit around.