TMI!!

There's entirely too much information on the Internet! Or, I should say, there's too much stuff (for lack of a better word). Not everything that's on the Internet is true. I would estimate that the vast majority of material online is pure crap. I've been investigating ADHD, since my doctor said I'm "the poster boy" for it. There's so many horror stories, I quit reading them. I just want to have some semblance of a "normal" life. I really, really do. I've lived this crazy, nonstop gogogogogogo life, and I'm just tired. Now I'm in dire financial straits AGAIN, and I just want to curl up in a ball and cry thinking about it. I thought the new meds were working, and they are, I just keep having these catastrophic events happen, and I'm trying so hard  not to freak the hell out! I'm scared, and alone out here in AZ. I hate being alone. And now, I had to pawn my TV for gas money, and it's quiet. Too quiet, really. I don't know where I'm going with this, just wanted to actually write the words "I'm scared about what's happening to me". So, there it is. I'm scared as hell. And I don't know  what to do.